Searching for...

What am I searching for? The meaning of life? If I remember correctly, it's 42. For a job? As always, I am unemployed. Where did I go wrong? I'm 34 years old, and haven't managed to have the same job for more than 3 years. I usually get really bored and quit. Which then prompts me to make another job search.

I'm going through a Bible study now, and the last section was about Sarah. One of the topics talked about Sarah did not always submit to her authorities - Abraham, God. Then it asked the question, "What authorities do you have trouble submitting to?" Well, I'm still single, so I don't have a husband to listen to. I'm unemployed, so I don't have a boss. I don't live with my parents, so I don't really have to worry about that. The only authority would be God, and I think we all struggle at times submitting to His authority.

Which brings me back to the job search. It would probably go easier for me if I prayed about what I was doing, instead of just sending out resumes to every job I saw posted online or in the paper (yes, I still read an actual newspaper that gets delivered to my doorstep every morning!). There's a material side of me that wants to pay rent and buy food for my dog! And it would be much more simple if I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. I've done a little bit of everything, so I've eliminated a few occupations, but I don't feel called to any particular career path. I asked a friend how do you know. His answer was, "If you feel a call, go for it, but other than that, I don't know." That's what seminary and years of being a pastor taught him! Just kidding, Brett, you know I love you!

So pray that I figure something out.